Independence Day Menu

Grilled Corn

Potato Salad

Tenderloin and Pineapple Kebabs

Mango Pico-de-Gallo

Yoghurt Flatbread

Mango Cobbler

Mint Iced Tea, Coca-Cola

Dionfo 11:47 AM

The grief came like rain. Predictably, intensely, then slowly fading out, only to surge back again. One woman said a prayer. Another, the mother [perhaps], repeated “oh my baby”. No crying. The men made sad faces, and spoke less. Two or three started talking about how to maintain one’s health, the symptoms of malaria, and the lack of medical support that is available out in the village. Better to raise a child in the city.

We passed through the checkpoint without bribing the gendarme because the driver put on the hazard lights and told him there was a body, the body of a child, in the car.

Your name was likely Ibrahima. Born perhaps 20 or 30 months ago, to Aissatou and Thierno Boubacar. When you died no one was expecting it. They knew you were sick, probably with malaria. I didn't know you were sick; I didn't even register your unique presence in the car. You were another child sitting on another woman's lap, one of five or six. You weren't the one that cried and screamed until we started moving, nor the one that spit up on his jacketfront because of motion sickness. But halfway to Labe the woman holding you said something and the driver stopped abruptly and we all got out and laid you on the ground and you were dead. 

Late June, 2013

The fog rolls in through my window. I want to go outside and be in it but the front door is padlocked and the keys are in another room where someone is still sleeping. 

I packed my bag mostly and put on the jacket I had made that really I can only even wear in this city because everywhere else in the country is too hot and got out money for breakfast but I’ll have to wait. 

So instead of reflecting on the sky and the mud I will imagine what is good for breakfast (warm bread and nescafe) and write about the baby that died and listen to the motorcycles and people and chickens waking up around me. And the fog drifts in through my window.

Today I

Today I ate some mangoes. Today I watched the red sun rise. Today I made peanut butter stew. Today I got stung by a (tiny) scorpion. Today I finished a book; The Thing Around Your Neck, and it made me nostalgic for many things, not all of them good or happy. Today I thanked fourth graders for carrying rocks. Today I bought meat and fresh bread and okra and bananas that tasted a bit like cloves. Today I borrowed a wheelbarrow. Today I smashed many rocks with a sledgehammer. I got so sweaty my pants were wet. Today I took antibiotics and a malaria prophylaxis. Today I explained the difference between calculating mechanical power and electrical power. Today I yelled at a girl for headbutting a boy with her headscarf. Today I picked eggplant in our garden. Today I ate some of some more mangoes and some goats ate the rest. Today I tried to guess which vegetable was which while I ate my dinner in the dark outside. Today I saw the new moon.

Like I knew that I would

I’m feeling good. Of course there are many ways to feel good, even limiting oneself to the literal somatic feelings that the body experiences, which is what I have in mind. Running nine miles feels good, going back to sleep feels good, breaking the surface tension of water feels good.

I can’t identify why I’m feeling good.

I know that the chair I’m sitting in usually isn’t this comfortable, but today its contours and misaligned slats are welcoming me like any fauteuil would after four drinks.

The wind is light, mostly, and not all that cool. It seems to change directions now and then. Sometimes the sky flashes red in the east, and fewertimes booms as well. It was raining earlier; not even a real storm with a dry-spell-shattering deluge, but real enough to remind us here that the rainy season will come again. The sky was half yellow and half blue while the stormcloud was lit from above during the sunset.

I know that the antibiotics and malaria prophylaxis in my bloodstream shouldn’t have much effect on how my body feels while I’m awake. Also, peanut butter and molasses and bananas shouldn’t make me feel this way either.

Maybe it’s sitting here on the terrace and feeling my subconscious shift from “every day is dusty and forty degrees” to “every day is green and your flipflops will flip mud onto the back of your pants”.

Maybe it’s reading Playboy for the articles of course and being saddened by the large variation in the quality of editing. Aren’t they supposed to be at least a little bit proud of their prose?

Maybe it’s watching day become evening becoming night, in thirty-five minutes.

Maybe it’s done with school in three weeks done with Peace Corps in three months done with Africa in October.

Maybe it’s purposefully not watering our garden for the first time.

Maybe I don’t need an explanation. 

Eating Beans

I am sitting on a bench outside the chicken shack. I am eating beans. I am watching motorcycles flutter past. I am being rained on. I am crossing my ankles. 

Guingan Style

Speaking to likely inevitably Mr. Diallo found out he was Mr. Bah. He was a bit drunk and me not really but our conversation was in four languages. He was selling prepacked semi-local snake oils and powders. Wearing sunglasses too. I saw him later drinking his earnings, and selling still.

And we were sitting on a log that termites had finished with, balancing. Palm wine is 2000 francs guinéens per skin, about a litre. Easy to drink, even when it’s hot. And it’s always hot. Or warm. There is no good equilibrium between sweetness cloying sweetness and vinegar pee fart juice. But some things don’t matter when you’re drinking.

There was a young girl wearing yellow, including a bucket on her head that was yellow. An older girl went by with what are those pancakes in a bit of brown paper. Presented them to some seated men. Commissioned undoubtedly, she didn’t eat any of any of them.

I was holding a chicken with my feet. A cock at that, seven dollars at that. But its legs were tied together with a band of blue so it wouldn’t have gotten away quick even if it had been inspired to go and if I hadn’t been gently retaining it. But I got up to pee on the other side of the dry streambed so I confided the chicken to auntie sitting just in front of me selling tappets, and she confided it to her sister next to her. I came back from the openair bathroom finding the pancake lady. One thousand each to break the bank so emptied my pockets acquiring them, brought them back to share. Oily and leavened a bit and with rice flour and tepid and a bit hard so we devoured them.

Time to go cause the wine and the wine are gone. Back to bikes. Back to the market. Bought more wine, the red kind in the bottles that are repurposed to hold gasoline later. So it can get hot against my sweaty back on the way home. Or we could send it with mom. Ended up choosing the later. Better for transport, worse for potential hydration on the ride home. Two almost crashes and one real one, involving a domesticated animal.

The road is flat and rocky, barren, exposed, gravelly, flesh wasting away to expose the hard white bone beneath. I traded bikes and rode the “Eastman” blue one with the upside down bars and bent cranks. It had a slow leak that got faster. Later we found out that there were two trous. The chain was skipping and descending frequently too so frequently that I finally gave up flustered and traded back. The air boiled away, leaving only dust and light behind, each competing for my antagonism but instead they got beat by yeast+sugar.